I just picked up Barbara's computer. Pray for it, it really, really needs an exorcism!

Spoke with Kevin WEdnesday night, said he thought he could get it running again, but was truly one of the worst cases he has seen.  Keep Barbara and Randal in your prayers.....having a tought ime of things

Take care, an dtell everyone "Hey"

Hey Barbs Babe!  So glad to hear from you.  I miss you too.  I seem to be the only one who is not adjusting to this move we made.  You need a passport to come here.  Bethany is doing good in school and has made friends, Cain has a girlfriend and Stacey......well, he's a little more adaptable to change than I am.  And don't you worry your pretty little head, you and I will be friends forever.  Yes, we have been getting stormy weather.  That's what happens when you live in tornado alley.  We have had 2 storms that had hail.  The first one was marble size hail and the second was golf ball size hail.  We have had uprooted trees.  But so far we have been blessed and have not had a tornado come through, although there has been rotation in the clouds.  We have a storm house and we do use it.  This time of the year is really bad for tornados.  I have the movie Twister and Bethany won't let me watch it because everytime I do it comes up a cloud, LOL.  I watched it the other day while she was at school and when she got home she got mad at me.  Well, I know all about having to adjust to a different life. It is not easy no matter what you do.  You may find out that you have emotions you never knew you had.  And that there are different levels of these emotions.  In my situation I have felt abandoned, that God turned His back and even that He did not care at all.  And what people neglect to tell you during their "words of encouragement" is that these feelings are normal and it is part of the cycle of what you are going through.  Moving back here in a small town where everybody knows everybody and they think they are suppose to know everybody's business, I have had to hit the highlights of Stacey's illness and the aftermath of it and I have found that there are two types of people: those who live in "Fairyland" and those who live in "Reality".  The ones living in Fairyland say "God does not let bad things happen to people and everything happens for a reason and only good things will come out of this. And I just smile and nod.  The ones who live in Reality know that God Is in control and that he Does let bad things happen and only He knows the reason why.  Some people tell me "just keep your faith and everything is going to be alright".  Before Stacey got sick I considered myself a strong christian. I had a lot of faith.  I always prayed and thanked God for my health and for my family's health.  I always prayed and asked God to keep us healthy and never let any of us get a disease.  And I did not worry about it because I prayed and asked God and I had faith and believed that we would never get sick.  Guess what?  Stacey and Jackie were having a good life.  They were doing good financially, they had a good strong marriage, they had their health, they had good jobs that they both loved, they had two wonderful kids and they were happy.  Then guess what?  Stacey got sick and  everything that was good was now not good.  I don't believe that God decided one day that he was just going to rock Stacey and Jackie's world and turn it upside down.  I do believe that we will never know in this life why all of this happened.  Sometimes I wonder if He decided to just break the mold and start over with us.  He Is God.  He can do whatever He wants to.  I have learned that I can ask God for whatever I want but He is only going to give me what He wants me to have.  I am also careful about what I ask for because I might get it but not how I want it.  I still love God and I will serve Him until  I draw my last breath.  Barbs Babe I don't think it matters if we write a book or not.  I am just glad you are here.  I sure do love you and miss you a whole bunch.  When you least expect it I will surprise you.  Until then take care of you! 

Good Morning Everyone!  Hope this day finds you all doing well.  I just wanted to drop a line or two to say Hi and to let you all know I was thinking about you and that I miss you very much!

Please keep us in your prayers.  Stacey has applied for more jobs than we can count.  He applied for one at a community college as a teacher.  We are praying that he gets that one.  It would be the least stressful one.

Love you all and hope you have a Great Week!

Lots of Love,   Jackie